Day 12: What We Admit

Pete Gall writes, "Success in life is not measured by what we achieve, but by what we come to admit." (My Beautiful Idol). I have something to admit: we can't do this anymore. By this, I mean the life we've been living. It's not working and something has to change. I was waiting to see if it would turn around, but it hasn't, and I don't see that it will. So on Monday, Asia starts in public school.

We thought we could do it--adoption and homeschooling at the same time. We admit we can't. It seemed good on paper--Colette would school Asia while Rex played in the next room, and when Rex napped, they'd have really focused schooltime. But real life is different than it is on paper. It turns out 2 year-old Rex doesn't want to play in the next room when Asia is around; he wants to play with her. And Rex' naps aren't always the entire two hours Colette had planned for, which leaves her rushing to try to get everything in should Rex wake up early.

This has left Colette completely stressed out, Asia wanting something else, who knows what Rex is thinking, and I, well I want my wife back. I still regard Colette as the power player in the family, because sometimes it requires more strength to admit you are weak, than it does to pretend you are strong, and because of what she's admitting, Colette is strong, so strong. Asia is really excited for public school too. She's going to the same elementary school I did as a boy. And Rex, well, he'll get one-on-one time with his Mommy. I'm proud of my family for what we admit.