Today I took a sabbatical from one of my jobs. I'm the Director of Marketing for a software company, but that's not what I'm taking a break from. For almost three years I've also served as the company chaplain, but today I walked away from that role. I don't know when I'll be back but I know I need a break from it. I think taking the sabbatical is a courageous thing to do. When people in spiritual leadership step down or step away, sometimes it's because of some scandal, either known or unknown to the public. If unknown, there are all sorts of speculations as to why. Was it another woman? A secret addiction? A falling away from the faith? I assure you it's none of the above.
Tonight as I laid down next to Rex, I began patting his chest, around his heart. After a bit, I took my hand off his chest and began stroking his hair. Pretty quickly he grabbed my hand and moved it back to his heart. He liked my hand there, liked me patting his heart as he fell asleep.
That's why I'm taking this sabbatical. I think I've forgotten that I'm really just a kid who needs his Father. You see, when we do a lot of grown-up things, it's easy to forget this. I run the Marketing Department; I'm learning to be a dad to an adopted child; I'm supporting my wife; I'm finding extra ways to bond with my daughter. And until today, I was leading others to spiritual growth, officially. These are all adultish things that leave one feeling important, but not necessarily better off. Sure, I can write a good piece, but how close am I to the Father's heart? Enough to want Him near? Enough to move Him? Enough to hold his hand on my heart? I could learn a thing from Rex.
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About Me
- C.S. Heinz
- I'm the Director of Marketing for EnergyCAP, Inc., publisher of the best selling energy management software. I write on topics like prayer, discipleship, intimacy with God, family, and adoption. I like to buy books and sometimes I even read them.
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